I feel so drained... >.<

And sad too... TT_TT I'm scared of stuffs might happen like they would find a better artist... The one who could do stuffs I can't... The GRADUATED one O___O!!

Jeeezz! >___> I really really want to continue studying but, the thing is...I should earn more money... o_o I mean, the things I earned and worked for... I can't just keep it to myself...(If u know what I mean)

My other siblings need them too and some of the house expenses as well...

>__< But but but... If I continue this I won't be able to finish.. ..If you keep it, they'll say you're selfish... But If I gave them all... What's gonna happen to you? O_o

I mean, it's not like I'm pointing out that they're forcing me or something... Jeez! Of course you'll feel the needs of your family... You can't help it... you'll still think of them first before yorself... Just like what they did to me in the past years...

But I REALLY REALLY want to graduate... Before, MAPUA held a program in Digital Arts and Design for a 2 yr course.... Now everyone I knew is way head of me...they're ready to finish the Course.. And now....The program will end... It'll be back to a 4 yrs of study in the same field...

**Sigh*** >.< I'm so dedicated to my studies.. This is what I really want...

O_O ........ the thing is I wont stop... >__< But I don't want to step up to my 20's and still I haven't finished any kind of Course in any College.. X@

(PS: Ignore that mood smiley... I certainly do not feel joy ryt now... DA's jammed..can't change it >_>